I’m still wrapping my head around the thought that I am actually 19. My life feels like it has gone right past me, but at the same time I feel like it is moving just as slow as a snail. I’m not sure if it’s just because I always have a plan and sometimes I get to anxious for those things to happen that I wish the time away.
When your young you don’t worry about anything, well… maybe only what you want to eat right after you finish eating! How simple life was back then! As the older I got the more I felt the world was changing around me. My family was changing, siblings were moving out, getting married and creating their own lives. In some ways I am not good with change especially when it affects me. As the changes are made many adjustments have to happen, even if those adjustments aren’t easy.
See the thing about this life is that not only is the world changing, but we are changing as well. Looking back at the little girl that I used to be and the dreams and wishes that I had, I smile at the thought of her. How creative, carefree and just simply happy she was. I’m not saying that I don’t have these in my life at the moment, but just the difference between that girl and the woman I am today are very different.
I used to look at people with just my eyes, isn’t that how we should see people? The older I got the more I came to realize that, that is not how we should look at people. There is a saying “ Never Judge someone till you understand the battles they are fighting” how simple is that and powerful that saying is? We have no idea what someone else is going through and yet we judge them based on what we see. I have made it a goal of mine to not look with the naked eye but to look with the heart. See the good in everyone, you will see how beautiful each soul is and how different they all maybe.
A very bad habit of mine is to count down the days till something happens. I’m my case right now it would be till I move home. I’m not going to say when I’m moving home because there are still some variables that could change the day that I get to move back home. It has not always been easy to not have a count down or think about that day. The thing between that person and the person that I am working towards is that one looks towards the future and one is living. I want to be the one that is living not surviving till a certain day. So, with that I am creating the life that I want to look back on and smile with a grateful heart. To see the woman that I have grown into and be proud of.
As fast as life is, nothing will change the lessons that it teaches us. No money in the world can buy you the love, happiness, and peace that this world can give to you freely, only if you just live life. Time comes and goes, but the things that happen today won’t happen again so take advantage of the time you have. It can change you for the better or for the worst, you decide how each day, Month and year will effect you as a person. May this week, month and the rest of the year bring you much growth and happiness in your life!
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