My mind seems to never stop or slow down. Wondering how I could have so many things to think about, well that’s probably because I think of every scenario that could happen with whatever is going on in my life.
Having sleepless night because I seem to never stop thinking about life or crazy things.
From all this thinking that I have been doing the one things that has really hit me is quite……
” At the end of the day, I just want to be proud of the person I have become. I want to be proud of the love I gave – of the way in which I risked my heart despite the things it has been through. I want to be proud of the effort I showed those I care about, I want to know with a ruthless certainty that I showed up as much as I could, that I made people feel seen, that I made those around me feel less alone in this chaotic world. I want to be proud of my life – of the way that I healed, of the way I made mistakes and learned from them, of the way I felt everything even when it wasn’t convenient or comfortable. I want to be proud of the way I grew, of the way I let go, of the way I pushed myself to a better person. At the end of the day, I just want to be able to say with out hesitation that I Lived my life, that I did not just take a back seat to my fear, or to my flaws, or whatever hardships came my way, I want to be able to say that I am proud of the way that I survived. I want to be able to say that I did not take one day for granted, that I truly gave it my all.” – Bianca Sparacino
I’m the type of person who loves quotes and will spend hours reading them off Pinterest but when I came across this one, I just felt like someone had put into wards of how I was feeling.
How can a quote just speak to you and know exactly what you are feeling and thinking? I may not know the answer to that. I do know that I do want to look back on my life and feel proud of the person I become because of the trials that I went through but as well as the beautiful memories that I have created.
Better myself by knowing what type of person I want to be. To give each day my all even if I fell like I had failed at being that person that I want to be.
Even though I have flaws and fall short a lot of the time, I want to go to bed knowing that I tried and gave it my all. I pushed through the moment of not wanting to keeping going. To be able to say I did it at the end of the day. I made it through, I’m one step closer to where I am going.